Afraid to step on the scale!

Typically, I weigh myself daily, however since after Christmas I have been afraid to step on the scale! 

Why you may ask???

For fear that  might break it, just kidding, no for fear that I will see a number that will throw me into a mini-depression due to it being so high……..a number that doesn’t start with 14, but possibly 15, YIKES, I would die….=O

Fingers crossed when I do finally step on the scale the number is in the 140’s, even if it is a high number as long as it is in there I will survive as I know I can bounce back quickly from that, unlike a 150’s number. 

Why so fearful? 

Because of the following:

  • I have not been eating the greatest since before Christmas and the 2 weeks since!
  • I have only ran a total of 10 miles over the past 2 weeks!
  • I haven’t been to the gym since before Christmas and then only once in the 4 weeks before!

I know, I know…….I shouldn’t let the number on the scale control me so.  I have preached that on my blog, but come on folks we all know the number on the scale controls ALL OF US. 

As said above I typically weigh myself daily.  It helps motivate me to eat better, run farther and try harder at the gym…….weather the number is higher or lower than usual.  I would use a slight weight gain to motivate me the same way I would use a weight loss.  It works most of the time. 

However, around the end of the year, when there are more temptions than not and less time to run or hit the gym and tons on stress on top of both I find myself afraid to step on the scale, very afraid!!!

Now, I typically bounce back during this month and once I do step on the scale I do see a weight gain.  I vow to work on it and by the end of the month or beginning of February I am usually back on track and close to my Pre-Holiday Weight. 

So I need to stop this foolness and just get on right.  Well I will, first thing Wednesday morning…………=O

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New Year, New Outlook

Hey Everyone, sorry I haven’t been on in a while.  =(

It was a pretty hectic holiday season full of celebrating, spending time with family, wrapping up year-end things at work, being sick and more……….sure you had the same and are possibly as HAPPY for the New Year to arrive as I was this year!

Don’t get me wrong I love the holidays, it is my favorite time of the year but this year was extremely busy and tiring.  So even though it so to see them end, it was nice to have some relaxing time to myself before starting anew in the new year.  =)

Now, I am not one for “resolutions” but I do believe it is always good to re-evaluate your goals and reassess things in your life during this time.  Even if only in thought, no need to put undue pressure on you that is all to common with New Year’s Resolutions.

Think about it the majority of New Year Resolutions are health related.  Losing weight, quitting smoking, eating healthier, and exercising regularly top the list.  We have the best intentions as the New Year begins, but all too often, most resolutions are broken within just a few weeks.

Why is that you may ask???

Because behavior change is extremely difficult at best!  Adopting healthier lifestyle habits is not as easy as it sounds even though we know that cardiovascular disease kills more people each year than all other illnesses combined.  Cardiovascular disease, in large par, is a “lifestyle” disease.  Lifestyle diseases are a matter of “choice” because they are the result of our very own behaviors!

Experts tell us that we are not inclined to change our lifestyle choices and health behaviors until we realize what truly matters to us.  What’s more, we are only likely to sustain such behavioral changes when they are deeply significant to us.  Have you ever thought about what is most significant to you?  What truly matters to you?  And, perhaps even more important, what are you risking if you do NOT change your lifestyle choices?

When you are healthy, you are better able to DO whatever IT is that is most significant to you.  Close your eyes for a moment and imagine this.  Can you picture yourself perfectly healthy?  What would that feel like for you?  Can you even imagine it?  What does it feel like?  How would you look, how would you feel?  What would you do if you could do anything?  Would you be a better parent, spouse, friend, employee or employer?  Would you be able to better DO the things that matter most to you?

As I stop and think about my answers to all these questions I realize that being HEALTHY requires a certain amount of “self-care”!  “Self” care….but, isn’t that selfish you may ask?  On the surface, it may sound selfish because we are not comfortable putting ourselves first.  However, “self” care means taking care of yourself so you can become the best and the healthiest you can be, which then allows you to better serve and care for those around you.  What would you be able to do if you were free of pain, a healthy weight, strong, flexible and fit?  In that respect, self-care is a very selfless act.  Just like the emergency instructions on the airplane, put the oxygen mask on yourself first before you tend to those around you.

This is something that I realized a long time ago, when I first started on My “Weight Loss” Journey.  I realized back then, when I weighed over 240 pounds and was extremely unhealthy and out of shape that I needed to take care of myself and become healthier if I was going to be good at taking care of others………..be a good mom, daughter, girlfriend (now wife), friend, employee and more.  That it wasn’t “selfish” to do this.  That it was mandatory to this in order to be who I truly wanted to be for ME and others in my life.

So this year, rather than make a New Year’s Resolution, creat a New Outlook for yourself!

Imagine where you would like your health to be one year, five years and even ten years from now.  Describe how you would like to look and what you would feel like.  Consider what achieving your “healthy” vision would entail.  Identify your goals and be very specific to yourself, but do not put pressure on yourself to do this over night

First, start with making a plan.  Then, research your available resources for the plan and tell yourself how you will be accountable for it.  Examine any barriers that may stand in the way of you achieving your vision and plan how you can get around them.

Then, each day, take one step towards your vision.  One day that might mean eating better, another day it might mean exercising, another day it might mean scheduling an appointment with your doctor for a full physical to see where you are at and what you may need to work on or change.

Finding your New Outlook and becoming healthy is a “journey” rather than a destination!  It is a process requiring constant re-assessment and re-balancing it: as one goal is met, another goal replaces it.  This is something I have been working on for the past 2 year now, why I started this blog in fact………Finding A Healthy Balance! 

Finding your “new outlook” or “healthy balance” as me……….is not black or white, right or wrong, or all or none, like a traditional New Year’s Resolution.  It truly IS a process.  Strive towards your vision, your goal.  Realize that there will be setbacks or unforeseen circumstances.  Stay on track by recognizing what truly matters to you.  When there are bumps in the road, re-assess and re-balance your goals and set new ones, if necessary, to achieve your outlook/vision/goal.  There are many ways to get there, let the path unfold before you! 

As I re-assess my outlook and goals for the new year, I find myself very excited for what will come for me over the next 12 months.  New running and gym training plans, new races, new PR’s, new recipes to try, new achievements on the home front and within my career, and so much more. 

I look forward to sharing them all with you, HOWEVER I have to start the New Year out on the right foot and admit to you and myself that I just do not have the time I used to and am unable to focus on my blog as much as I would like so in light of that I wanted to tell you that I may go a few days, a week or even two at times without posting but I will post when I can as I enjoy doing so greatly so I hope you will stick around for those times.  If not I understand, such is life…….things change and you have to adapt, which I am doing. 

I wish everyone a very Happy New Year and here’s to you finding your NEW OUTLOOK in life and may it be successful and bring much joy to your life!  =)

3 Days Worth….

………….of Baking, GrillingRunning, Shopping & Wrapping Gifts!

As you might imagine it was quite a busy 3 Days (Friday, Saturday & Sunday) for me this past weekend. 

I too Friday off so I could do some shopping so let’s start there.

Orlando Premium Outlet Mall (International Drive)

My husband and myself ventured to International Drive in order to do a day of shopping while our little one was at school.  We hit the Orlando Premium Outlets while there and looked for some Christmas Gifts as well as a jacket for my husband

Our shopping venture took us to other stores around the outlets, including Bass Pro Shop across the street.  This store was massive.  A man’s dream store, as I confirmed from all the men inside.  I can honestly say I have never seen so man men in one store in my life. 

My husband finally found the jacket he was looking for and I got a few things on my list as well.  Another trip will need to take place later this week but only for a few odds and ends luckily.  I think I might hit the mall that time so I can take in all the decorations and enjoy a nice lunch, a holiday tradition for me.  Just doesn’t feel like the holiday’s without doing both.  =)

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Next, let’s review grilling as I did just that on both Friday and Saturday nights for dinner.

On Friday night I made Brown Sugar Bourbon marinated pork chops on the grill for dinner along with roasted potatoes and corn on the cop

The meal was super yummy.  The pork chops came out perfectly.  I grilled them with only one layer of charcoal and let them sit for approximately 8 to 10 minutes per side on the grill until they were all crispy on the outside and juicy on the inside.   ***Sorry for the lack of pictures, it was a busy/tiring day and I completely forgot.

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On Saturday night I made Mahi on the grill along with a baked stuffed crap cakes, fries and green beans on the side for dinner.

Dinner

This was My 1st Official Attempt At Making Fish and not just on The Grill, AT ALL!!!

It all started when I was walking by the seafood department at Publix and found Mahi on sale for $6.99 lb.  I confirmed with my husband that he liked this kind of fish (he does, though he pointed out it wasn’t his favorite) and then I proceeded to ask the kind lady behind the counter to wrap it up for me and also her advise on how it should be cooked.

Once I got home I followed her instructions by doing the following:

  • Coated the fish with olive oil plus lots of blacking spices for fish.
  • Grilled it for approximately 4 to 5 minutes per side until it the meat was white and flaked off on the edge with a fork.

And, the below was born!!!

Mahi on the grill!

I also got stuff crap cakes that I baked 1st for 10 minutes at 350 degrees and browned on top of the stove after.

Crapcake

French Fries

While baking and grilling my fish picks I also fried up some french fries and nuked some canned green beans for the sides.

For my 1st attempt at this dish I was very pleased and will make again as it was extremely tasty!!!

As mentioned above this kind of fish is not my husband’s favorite.  He prefers the Gulf of Mexico fish like Red Fish, etc.  However, those are not easily found in Orlando.  Only at local fish bait shops by the Gulf so we had to settle for Mahi.  Though next time we will splurge on Red Snapper, which was $14.99 lb.

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Let’s not forget the running I did over the past 3 days!

On Friday morning, after I sent my little one-off to school for her final day before Winter Vacation, I headed out for a run on what was chilly but sunny morning.

I ran 4+ miles (think around 4 and 1/2 but didn’t map it) in approximately 55 minutes.  I was not trying to go fast by any means on this run.  I just wanted to go out for a nice hour-long run and enjoy the fresh air.  And, that is exactly what I did.  =)

I also ran just under 3 miles on Sunday morning, however it was quite a different morning on this run.  The sky was covered in grey clouds and it was much colder out than on Friday, plus it was a bit foggy as well.  The run was completed in exactly 30 minutes as I had to get home by 10am.

Also, before I forget I ran a FAST 3 miles at the Gym on Thursday after work…..the reason I wanted to mention this to you for two reasons:

  1. For the 1st time I ran more than 1 mile at 6mph, I ran it for 3 whole miles!  =)  Now I will point out I started the run at 5mph and upped it to 6mph during the 1st mile and then during the last 5 minutes of the 3rd mile I ran between 6.1mph to 7.5mph to finish. 
  2. I almost fell face down on the treadmill during the last 10 seconds of my run!  Why you may ask?  Because my long sleeve t-shirt that was hanging on the side of the treadmill fell off and under my feet so I slipped on it.  Luckily, I caught myself before hitting the running treadmill with my face below.  =O

My week ended with 13 miles in all

Not to bad in all, however this week I will be aiming for 15+ in light of all the EXTRA EATING that will surely be occurring…………….

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Finally, onto baking and gift wrapping that took place all day on Sunday!  Most of the day was spent baking (and cooking a little) and the rest wrapping gifts.  I started after my daughter left with her grandma for the day and my husband went to work at 10a.m.

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First, I headed to Wal-Mart to grab a few last-minute items needed for the day, then I grabbed a coffee from Dunkin Donuts on my way home and next I made myself some breakfast.

DD Medium Hazelnut Coffee

Breakfast

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Second, I started by getting all my ingredients together so I could start the process of making Chocolate Covered Peanuts as it would take 3+ hours to make.

All the ingredients.

Then I looked over the recipe one more time and began to follow the super simple instructions.

The Recipe

Next, I chopped up all the chocolate so it was in smaller pieces for adding to the crock pot.

Chopped chocolate chunks

Last, I added all the ingredients to my crock pot that was set on low.

Everything in the crockpot

And, I set it for 3 hours and waited……….

Timer set and waiting.......

About an hour later I lifted the lid to stir everything up and then in hour two I did the same thing again.

All stired up

Just before the 3 hours were up I switched the crock pot to low as I knew it was ready to start dropping spoonfuls on wax paper, which I did.

Spoonfuls of yumminess!

Last, I let them dry.

Drying spoonfuls of yumminess!

As you can see the recipe makes A LOT, so there is plenty to give away and keep for yourself to eat!  =) 

I gave away to containers full to my mom and mom-in-law last night and the rest went into a large and medium container that I put in the freezer for keeping (I of course sampled a few while doing so).

What I love about these is they freeze wonderfully, which keeps them out of site (and mind) but when you want one all you have to do is take one out and a minute or so later it is ready to eat.

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Big Pot of Chili

Third, I made a big pot of chili to go with the chilly weather outside!  I followed my favorite recipe from Paula Dean’s son Jamie’s recipe, here it is for your viewing pleasure………..Jamie’s Chili.

Not only is to full of three (3) different kinds of beans but it is very yummy and filling.  Plus, my husband loves it so it is a super easy lunch for him.

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 Fourth, I made one of my favorites……..Pumpkin Bread!  =)

My slice after baking! =)

It was super easy to make as everything (minus the eggs, water, oil & Pecans) including the recipe came in one box……..

All the ingredients and baking items

I wipped everything together, starting with the wet ingredients and then added the dry.

Wet ingredients, whipped together

Dry ingredients, mixed in with the wet and Pecans on top

I than poured it all into the baking containers.

All poured in

And, baked at 350 degrees for 60 minutes until them came out like this……

All Done1

All Done2

And, that is how you make Pumpkin Bread (super easy) and VERY YUMMY!!!  =)  I gave the two smaller loafs to my mom and mom-in-law and kept the bigger one for home.

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And, finally, LAST, but not least I was able to get some gift wrapping done after all of the above!

All the gift wrapping items together now.......

Everything wrapped and under the tree!

And, on that note I will end this VERY long post that I hope you all enjoyed…………I will try to do a little post before the holiday, however if not I hope you all have a great and very Merry Christmas!!!  =)

Florida Freeze

Florida Freeze

The rest of the country is not alone when it comes to freezing temperatures, as what they are calling the Florida Freeze struck us here in what is usually “sunny” Central Florida early this week.

Tuesday Morning Temps

We experienced freezing temperatures the past 2 nights (Monday & Tuesday) and 20+ degrees below average temperatures for this time of year as well during the beginning of the week.

7 Day Forecast

Luckily, as you can see above we will get back to “normal” by the end of the week and I might be able to run outside this week if I am lucky.

SPEAKING OF RUNNING!

What is a girl to do when there is freezing temperatures outside and she doesn’t have the proper cold running gear in order to venture outside for a run????

She hits the gym that is!

And, that is exactly what I did after work on Monday night.

I had planned to doing a full training session that included abs, upper & lower body weight machines and then a quick 1 mile run

BUT, I didn’t have enough time as I had to stay at work late so I just hit the did a fast 3 mile run in 30 minutes

Now, mind you it has been ages since I did a “fast run” so it was a bit challenging…….yet at the same time easily done. 

Which, felt great! 

I ran most of the run at 5.8mph and finished at 8mph after upping .1mph each minute at the end.

In light, of the current weather conditions I will be skipping Tuesday’s  December’s Running Training Schedule run and will be hitting the gym again after work on Wednesday to hopefully do a full training session that I missed on Monday as well as another fast run.

Hopefully, I can return to running outside by the weekend!

In the mean time it is all GYM for me.

A girl has to make adjustments when things throw a curve ball into her scheduled. 

TAKE NOTE ~ This is one of the most important things I learned during my My “Weight Loss” Journey! and over the past year!  That you have to roll with the punches (changes) per say to your schedule (both in and out of the gym) and not let them thrown you off or at the door.  It is hard sometimes but you can do it.  Just get back as soon as you can or adapt to whatever comes your way.

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In other news, I have been trying my hardest to not eat to many of these……..

Sugar Cookies

However, I must admit I have had at least 3 every day since we made them on Sunday night.  Luckily, they are pretty small cookies so I don’t feel to bad for doing that and I also have been keeping my other Nightly Snacks at bay as well since the beginning of last week so that has helped the scale not be so scary in the mornings.  =O

What is your favorite holiday treat?

Sugar cookies are mine for sure!!!   

I have loved them since I was a kid.  After the first time I made them with my step-mom during one Christmas visit.  I could eat all of them in one sitting if I am not careful so I try to keep them hidden.

I also love many of the other holiday cookie classics and am a sucker for the Starbuck’s Peppermint Mocha & Hot Chocolate.

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That about covers things for now. 

Sorry I do not have any EATS pictures to share with you but I have been so busy lately that I am lucky I find time to eat let alone take pictures of what I am eating…….I am sure you understand as I am sure you are really busy too right now, such is the Holiday Season.

Weekend full of………

…………..trimming the Christmas Tree and hang the Stockings on Saturday evening!

Our Christmas Tree (2010)

Our Stockings (2010)

Everyone took part in “trimming” the tree this year (last year my husband had to work so he missed it)!

  • I put the tree together.
  • My husband did the lights and moved all the branches around so they there would be no holes.
  • My daughter emptied out all the ornaments from the box.
  • We hung everything on the tree together and my husband put the angel on top fo the tree.

The entire process took approximately 3+ hours in all.  2 hours to put the tree up and 1 hour to decorate it.

While I put the tree up I watched my favorite Christmas movie of all time…………Christmas Vacation!

I love all of Chevy Chase movies and this one is my all time favorite, especially around the holidays of course.  It is just so funny and I completely understand how he wants to have a perfect family Christmas.  The movie always gets my in the spirit of the holidays and every year I watch it while putting the tree up and wrapping gifts.

What is your favorite holiday movie?

I also really like Home Alone, A Christmas Carol and I must admit I am a sucker for all the Hallmark Christmas movies as well.

In light of the busy evening we opted to order pizza for dinner from Papa John’s and enjoyed every warm bite of it.

Dinner

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………………………..Baking on Sunday!

First, I made sugar cookies so my daughter could decorate them for her teacher and classmates.

Sugar Cookies

After the cookies were all baked, I sampled one of course and then I set the table up for my daughter to decorate them.

Table

Then it was cooking decorating time and my daughter got right to it.

My daughter decorating the cookies!

I joined in about an hour later when there were still about half the cookies left to decorate and soon we had a huge pan full of decorated cookies.

All decorated and ready to eat!

Of course my husband, daughter and I had to sample several before boxing them up for my daughter to take to school this morning………they were as good as they look!  =)

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Second, I made cranberry white chocolate granola bars for my boss as a holiday gift. 

Holiday Gift f/My Boss

I used the Breakfast Bars from Slowing Things Down recipe that I have made several before……..Homemade Granola Bars but with raisins instead of cranberries and chocolate chips instead of white chocolate.

The version I made yesterday was of my own creation as I know how much my boss loves the ones I have made in the past as she always eats them whenever I bring them into work and I also know she loves cranberries and white chocolate so while shopping yesterday morning at the grocery store I came up with the idea and bought all the ingredients.

Let’s go through the steps below to making this yummy and healthy snack………

Step 1 - Grap the recipe & gather everything together.

Step 2 - Mix all the dry ingredients together.

Step 3 - Mix the wet ingredients in a pan over med-low.

Step 4 & 5 - Mix everything together and scoop into a baking pan.

Step 6 - Bake at 325 degrees for 20-25 minutes.

Step 7 - Cut & eat, serve or package.

And, that is how it is done!  They came out pretty good.  I wish I could have tasted the “white chocolate” more but other than that I liked them and the cranberries tasted wonderful.

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Later that evening I swipped together an Italian feast for dinner, it was SUPER yummy!

Dinner

Oh, and during the day we all snacked on these lovely’s that were on sale at the grocery store……

Clementines

I LOVE CLEMENTINES!!!  They are so juicy, sweet and easy to eat……..I would eat them all year-long if I could.

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In other news, I FINALLY ran over the weekend after 8 days and what a great run it was. 

On Saturday, morning I woke up around 8am and went for a 4+ mile run outside in the 50 degree weather with grey overcast cloudy sky for just over 55 minutes.

It felt amazing!  =)  Completely unlike what I thought it would be as I thought after being away for so long I would be tired and have a hard time but I didn’t luckily.

Finally feeling better! =)

Yes, you heard right………I am finally feeling better!  =)

So I can finally return to my December’s Running Training Schedule after a long absence………another big smile!  =)

Unfortunately, since I have been away I don’t have tons to share workout/running wise and I don’t want to bore you with the work stuff I have been dealing with all week so I will share with you my EATS for today and return next week with more!

Pear & Chocolate Spider

Salad

Taco & Rice

Apple & Godiva Peppermint Truffle

Another Salad

Dinner

I typically snack nightly (though I rarely take pictures of it)……..mainly just on peanuts, popcorn, icees, etc. 

However, since I was under the weather and out of the gym I STOPPED in order to not gain weight (hopefully) and lucky me I didn’t…….something I will note for the future when I am sick or away from the gym/running again!

Have a great weekend everyone!  =)

The cough that just will not go away!!!

Since Monday I have had a cough that just will not go away!!!

I believe it first stemmed from the Stuffy Nose I had at the end of last week, however I know I would not still have it if it wasn’t for the fact that we have had the heat on since Sunday night due to a Cold Front we are having here in Central Florida that has brought freezing temperatures to the area.

Freezing Temperatures

So as you can imagine the “heat” does not help my situation, especially when it is the 1st time we have turned it on so far this year so who knows what came flying out when we did that.

Luckily, I do not feel that bad and it seems to be getting better everyday!

BUT – – – I haven’t felt well enough to head outside (especially in the freezing cold weather) to run or the gym either for that matter.  So today, marks 1 Week since I ran last and 2+ weeks since I have been to the gym (the gym is due to my work schedule being crazy recently).

However, I think I might try to run tonight after work.  Even if it is only for 2 miles or so.  And, if that doesn’t work I plan on hitting the gym this Friday after work and the pavement this weekend to run as the weather is due to get a bit warm per the 7 Day Weather Forecast.

7 Day Weather Forecast

Overall, I have missed running and the gym a lot! 

In fact, I have been feeling the stress of not doing either. 

Fortunately, though I haven’t been stressed weight wise as the scale has been very friendly to me as you can see on my Weekly Weigh In page.  Which, I know is mainly due to the fact that I haven’t been eating as much due to being sick and I have also not been snacking at night either in order to keep my numbers low.

I have been surprised how easy it has been to avoid eating bad food or too much over the past week.  Guess being sick does that to you.  Not only do you not have much of an appetite, a stuffy nose doesn’t make things taste so great either.

So as you can imagine my EATS have been pretty good so far this week.  =)

Check out what I ate on Monday in order to judge for yourself:

Dunkin Donut's Medium Hazelnut Coffee

I must admit I had the above on Friday, Saturday and Monday due to forgetting to buy creamier at the grocery store.  Luckily, it only cost $1.80 a cup so it didn’t break the bank too much now. 

Oatmeal in a Peanut Butter Jar

It has been awhile since I had oatmeal in a peanut butter jar and for the life of me I do not know why as I forgot how GOOD it is, YUM!  In fact, I added peanut butter to my oatmeal on Tuesday and Wednesday as well because I loved the taste so much.

Ranch Salad

Pork Loin w/Corn on the Cob & Baked Potato

I think did pretty good on my eats, what do you think???

However, when things like this…………..

Chocolate Nutcracker

…………start arriving in your office it begins to become tough to not break in and eat it even when you are under the weather!!!  =O

What kind of “goodies” do you get at work or home for the holidays???

Every year we get one of the above from someone we work with as well as a Harry & David basket that should be arriving soon.  We used to get a lot more stuff in the past but due to the current economy everyone has cut back so we do not anymore, which is ok in my eyes as I do not need all the temptation around.  =)

I will try to check in tomorrow or Friday at the latest, have a good rest of the week everyone!